Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Hierarchy of Needs

A while back, I posted about my current lack of exercise and vowed to work out at least once a week.

The good news is, I've been sticking to that goal fairly well and have been squeezing in 15-30 minutes in a couple of times a week, along with walking that I get in during the daytime at work.

There isn't much intensity in my workouts, and I definitely am not making any progress on the weight front.  However, it's something, and when you effectively have not slept in six months, something is better than nothing.

Prolonged sleep deprivation has done a number of things to me.  For starters, besides exercise, food and eating, which were "up there" in my hierarchy of needs, is not as exciting to me anymore.  Actually, few things are exciting to me anymore, and that is pretty sad.  Given the choice between pretty much anything and sleep, sleeping wins, except I am terrible at sleeping during daytime hours, not like I have that luxury for the most part, anyway.

Around Baby Tuesday's five-month mark, I gave up and started co-sleeping.  I thought I gave it a good go trying to get him in his Pack N Play and then his crib, but after five months of frequent wakings and two of those months trying to swing those frequent wakings with a full-time job+commute and trying everything, I broke.  And while the wakings are still frequent, at least I don't have to spend as much time resettling both of us before going back to sleep for a fragmented part of time. 

I know/hope it will get better, but "better" is taking a lot longer than I thought.  I've fanaticized about knocking myself out just so my body can rest for longer than two hours at a time.  I've had to start using an eye roller to fix what it cannot fix, and I've become used to a chronic jaw- and head-ache.  I started a new job recently, and I feel bad that I can't give that, or pretty much anything, my all.  Most of the time, I feel like I have nothing to give.

So if my updates and product reviews are delayed, this is why.  Not that I feel any obligation to post frequently, but blogging is one of my last remaining hobbies and pretty much reflects my current state of health.  I'm hoping to get caught up soon.


  1. Aw, you'll get a handle on things. And don't worry about blogging. I totally get how it falls to the wayside when you just feel like you're barely keeping up. X woke up frequently until a couple months ago and co-sleeping was a savior. I also feel like it helped us be close since I was at work all day.

    1. Thanks! Things improved after I moved him to the bed, but then there are nights when he just doesn't settle for large chunks of the night. I don't know how long I can hang, and knowing it can be like this for a while is pretty rough! I do like having him next to me, though.

  2. II'm sorry to hear you're struggling with the sleep thing still. Sleep deprivation does strange things to the body and it's close to impossible to function. Hang in there! It'll get better, it has to. I'm impressed you have made time to workout and hold down a full time job. The thing with B3 was he never slept and one day that randomly changed (probably the co-sleeping). We still have our battles, but it will get better!!

  3. Ugh....Sleep deprivation is the WORST. I don't even have a baby and I *still* don't get as much good sleep as I should. All you can really do is care for yourself (& baby) the best you can & be patient. Hopefully in time things will return to normal (or at least, closer)!