Spoiler: Nope, I'm not running a marathon anytime soon. And yes, I dropped hints.
Very soon after my darling nephew's arrival earlier this year, I found out that I was pregnant. I remember after one of our visits to him in the hospital, "The Ukrainian" and I hinted to each other that a baby in our near future felt right. Since I sometimes feel very much like a child myself and have no close friends in the parent boat, I was wavering on this possibility. Little did I know, the decision had already been made.
Seeing those two lines was such a brief and small moment, yet one that would change everything. I think it took several weeks for the true impact to start sinking in, and in many ways, it still is. I had this kind of moment again when "The Ukrainian" and I heard the baby's heartbeat at my first ultrasound.
|Notice any bump-age here (9+ weeks)?? |
I don't really have recent pictures of myself,
so you'll have to wait until another post
to see the [what I deem to be huge] second
A (long-ish) side note:
Against what some people might have suspected, I did not skip out on running LA Marathon for pregnancy reasons. This would have happened either way (as I describe in this post). However, I HAD signed up for the Big Sur 21-Miler last year, knowing that I could possibly be pregnant by the time the race rolled around and that I'd just wait and see how things panned out. Long story short (because I know everyone has opinions/critiques when it comes to pregnancy and parenting and such, and I don't really want to hear them), I did my research, cleared my participation with my doctor, and carefully walked/ran following the instructions I was given. The medal is currently hanging in the future nursery.
|Gratuitous picture of the contents of my uterus.|
(12.5 weeks, a.k.a., an eternity ago)
Also, in the many emotional flurries I've been having, I have been thinking about my own upbringing. "The Ukrainian" and I both came from strict immigrant families, so I definitely think we will be strict parents. I am definitely jumping ahead here, but I want our child to be confident, self-sufficient, yet humble, and always, always with the feeling that he or she is loved. That last part is already very true.