Friday, June 20, 2014

Can't Avoid Summer

Today is supposedly the first day of summer.  If you've been reading here for a while, heat is my enemy.  Even if I'm not running, I can't stand waking up to excessive bright lights and realizing it's approaching 80 degrees when I'm still in bed.

Summer also means that my work wardrobe is limited.  I'm not big on wearing dresses, so the same rotation of cool flowy tops + flowy cardigans probably annoys the heck out of my co-workers.

I should be used to our long summers by now.  In Southern California, I feel like summer lasts on and off between March and November.  Not kidding; my wedding date was in mid-November, and the weather remained pretty much summer-like until two days before the ceremony.

On the upside, we have been able to eat dinner in our back yard and take evening walks.

On the downside, I have little or no desire to cook or bake.  The last grand baking effort I had was for Mother's Day, which I silently patted myself on the back for, because baking cookies is not my favorite thing.  Anything I can't bake in one go/batch is too much effort... ;)

Another upside -- a bounty of food stuffs from our garden.  We cheated and bought a tomato plant at Home Depot a while back, which has since produced maybe 15 delicious tomatoes.  The cilantro was grown from scratch in late March/early April, though by now, they have sprung into flowers and are obsolete.  I will have to collect the seeds and try again in the fall....  I fully admit that I'm a gardening "n00b," but that just gives me something to work on.  Well, in addition to running, though I've mostly been walking in the evening rather than trying to run in such conditions.

Admittedly, I'm definitely in a funk lately both personally as well as professionally.  I had dinner with an old colleague recently who tried to convince me that I am capable of more than I think, in a time when I feel like I have control over nothing.  How did I go from an ambitious grad student to someone who is kind of stuck in some sort of stagnation, just hanging on long enough to get by?  How did I go from running... to basically not?  Cooking/baking a storm to ... well, you get the point.

At least my house is clean, and I've been reading a lot of books??

1 comment:

  1. i'm in the midst of a running slump. it's terrible. but, nothing is as bad as a professional funk. i hate it when i feel unmotivated and detached from all the things i'm supposed to be doing. i hope that you are able to figure something out!