While doing an 8-miler this morning as my last "long" run before Fargo Marathon next week, I was having one of the most unenthusiastic runs ever.
That unenthusiasm seems to be a trend lately.
Obviously, one is expected not to run as much during the last few weeks before a marathon, but I took this to a whole new level. My mileage for the week stands at a grand 11, and even though I've been working out every day, running is sooo unappetizing to me right now for some reason.
Every taper, I seemingly can't wait to "quit running" for a while, though I never end up really "quitting" and just take a week off from it before building mileage again. In fact, with a half-marathon on June 12, I won't be getting much of a break.
I'll be fully honest now. Lately, I've been skipping out reading blogs that talk too much about running or racing, even though that was how my own blog started. I have been finding them uninteresting and a bit obsessive. How could one blog about running over and over again (uhh, me -- Ms. Case of the RUNs, for one)? I've left my Garmin and music behind on runs, just making them a simple matter of "getting out there" but still... nothing.
How could I be so aloof from something that I spend so much time thinking about/doing? I know I am going through a personal transition period, but this really started before then. Perhaps it was because I was "too busy" thinking about other things? However, this is not really an excuse anymore. I often feel forced to talk about running because it's the only connection I have with some people, or people keep asking me about it because I have that kind of reputation.
In addition, for some dumb reason, I caught a cold this week, which will make it illness #2 since February, a huge anomaly for me. If my motivation to run were any lower, I might as well not have a pulse.
So my goal for Fargo is just to have fun and hope that these races (the 5k and marathon) will rekindle my spirit a little. I don't want to quit running for any real length of time, because I'm deathly afraid of starting out from scratch when it strikes my fancy again. So, I have to either suddenly fall deeply in love with it or drudge through my workouts.
Anyone care to weigh in?
P.S. 3D-Frame giveaway closes at the end of Sunday.