Thursday, November 19, 2015

Standing at my Desk?

I randomly received the infographic below via e-mail.

I have blogged about being active while working before, though I no longer work here and things are too crazy at my current job to follow my stretch reminders that I used to set at my other old workplace.

Nowadays, I am a little less sedentary at my desk than I used to be, mostly because I'm running off to pump (hopefully not for that much longer, though!), go to the gym, get water, etc.  I used to have days (pre-baby) when I would literally not move (or thereabouts) at my desk from 8-4 straight.  I figured, I got my morning workout in... so I'm good!

But am I??

Sure, this is a promotion for a standing desk company, but I'm sure there's a lot of truth to this.  Now, if standing at my desk for half of the workday could get me even close to this 11-marathon per year figure, I could get in better shape.

I have a co-worker who kind of made her desk a makeshift standing office by putting her laptop up high.  Maybe I'll come up with something??  I work in a very analytical position, so I'd have to be good at spreadsheet-ing it while standing.

More to come!

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Happy Birthday, My Baby

What a year it has been!

A year ago, I had the most dazed and pukey day of my life, but hearing "The Ukrainian" tell me that we had a son and meeting the little guy for the first time are still very clear in my mind.

I will admit, most of the year has been a blur.  There was a lot of nursing/pumping, playing on the floor with the baby, waking up at night, anxiety, and washing... I'm pretty sure the lack of sleep messed with my sense of time.

Can/will single-handedly drink this whole thing.

I made sure, though, to commit everything I could to memory -- the feeling of his tiny grabby hand, his babbles, and even the many times I spent checking his hair curl for cradle cap.  All of the changes he has gone through this year have been nothing short of amazing.  He understands some things, throws balls when asked, reacts with great joy or discontent based on which book I've chosen for his bedtime story, stacks blocks, and says some words.  It's hardly believable that he was a little helpless newborn not that long ago.

I'm tired of taking these "month" photos, Mahh-mayyy!!!

Baby Tuesday has been in our lives for a year, and he has already given me so much.  I look forward to all the fun milestones ahead.

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Week 50 (Postpartum) Update

Although I never filled out the week-by-week pregnancy surveys that I've seen on (many) blogs, I thought it would be fun to do one now.


How far along? 50 weeks (close to 1 year) postpartum... is that too long to be considered "postpartum"???

Total weight gain/loss: +8 lbs (from average pre-pregnancy) -- yes, I'm actually going to post pics even though the only other points of comparison was when I got temporarily pretty fit after a disciplined round or two of Insanity.

Basically, I now have an extra layer of padding everywhere, especially in the middle.  Just being matter-of-factly here.  I didn't have much "body confidence" before having a baby because I wasn't at my goal, either.  Now, though, I can step back and just state things with fewer feelings involved (although keep reading below).

Maternity clothes? No, back in my old clothes, mostly, though some cause more muffin top than I'd like, and sometimes it looks like I'm ~4 months along with the next one (though I guess that sometimes happened pre-baby, too). -___-  In particular, tucking in buttoned shirts is just something I don't really try right now because they really just pop right out more than before.  Also, the chest/upper body area causes the buttoning to not work very well, and I'm not even large in that department.  I think I really just need a new work wardrobe but lack time/confidence to actually try stuff on.

Sleep: The longest stretch I've had in the past year is 6 1/2 hours, once.  On average, I get about 4-5 in a row before a wakeup, then about 1-2 more hours of broken sleep.  Once or twice a week, there will be a "zinger," which means 3-5 wakeups. This is a vast improvement from before, though!  Morning coffee (and I no longer discriminate as much as I used to) has become important.  I try to take one nap per weekend, though sometimes it turns out to be 15 minutes... and when it's not, it FEELS like 15 minutes.  I greatly underestimated the length of time I'd be sleep-deprived.

Best moment this week: We took him to Souplantation (one of my favorite places to eat), and he ate most of his meal unassisted.  We left a nice tip for the mess.

Movement: Cruising (walking while holding onto furniture or any other object possible, like the Bumbo.  He inherited one after he learned to sit on his own, and just as I was about to get rid of it, he decided it was a great toy.

Food cravings: Coffee, chocolate, kale, whipped cream cheese, soups, pretzel buns... basically whatever I can acquire easily

Anything making you queasy or sick: A lack of sleep and certain diapers!

Leakage: No, this happened in the very early days, mostly in the middle of the night (who knows why since I was up often), but who knows what the future has in store...

Belly Button in or out? In, deeper than it used to be, and although it's gotten much fainter, I still have that dark line running below it and a lovely pink/red 5+inch scar perpendicular to it.

Wedding rings on or off? My bigger ring (engagement) fits snugly, so I don't really wear it.  Wedding ring is tiiiiight, so I've pretty much given up on rings.  I think part of me is holding out that I'll fit them after weaning, but probably not.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Definitely more happy than moody now, though I'd say this has been a tug-of-war this year.  This having an infant thing is hard, and I struggle with feelings of guilt, restriction, longing, etc. all the time.  As he's getting older and more interactive (i.e., less crying), it does lighten the mood a lot.

Weekly Wisdom: A part of me is embarrassed that I, as someone who is supposedly health-conscious, am still hanging on to extra weight after all this time, even though I probably shouldn't feel that way.  As much as I want to be "normal" again, I understand that having a baby has possibly changed me forever in ways that may not be "fixable," especially at this current point in time.  Although it's hard for me to process most days due to years of conditioning and the media, health should be my real focus so that I can be a parent to my child, who is currently the focus of most of my bandwidth, which is okay and expected.  Hopefully, everything else falls into place someday.

Milestones: I have found a way to exercise with the baby around.  Sometimes, I will do videos with the baby there, which cuts out some of my excuses to be inactive.  It's normally just Pilates or body weight work, and I definitely get interrupted 15438580 times, but I'm secretly hoping that the baby will start imitating me someday for a good laugh. 

I'm also finally feeling like I'm getting some of my core strength back after being strettttched and sliced open, though I have a long way to go.  In particular, I find laying on my front (for lower back exercises and things like that) uncomfortable because my lower ab area feels like it has little to no muscle tone.  That means more core work for me!